Why do girls have to go take cosmetic surgery? Their look is the gift from above that was chosen for them! What they lack on the outside beauty they make up for in the inside. Once girls who undergone changes, it seems that the beauty inside of them fades away. Maybe they think that they are now beautiful and need to act differently. Little do they know...they might look beautiful on the outside but their genes don;t change and so their kids (not saying this will happen) but wont be as beautiful as them.
A funny story I grew up with was that some Asian girl went back to Asia (where surgery is dirt cheap)had a total face change. As she was about to leave back home to Australia...her passport picture did not match up to her new face so obviously they couldn't let her leave. She was forced to stay in Asia for nearly 6 months and had to get all these identifications done by her + her family. It was the dumbest story ever...like why would u do that? I guess I will never know...because I am happy with how I look. Dont get me wrong...there are things that I would like to change about myself, physically....but I tell myself, this is what was given to me by my parents and a higher power up there, changing it would be disrespecting them. Besides I am a strong believer of inner beauty over outer beauty so for me to resort to those people would never happen.
Over the summer holidays, I saw a friend who I was shocked to see. She used to have this mole on her face. It was very noticeable but when I saw her that day, I couldn't see it anymore. I didn't ask her as we recently became very distant but I found out later that she had it removed. Even though it wasn't major cosmetic surgery....it is still class the same as the others. I wondered why she did it...was it because she was unhappy with that mole? I mean she did live with it for 22 years of her life....Why now? OR Was it because her boyfriend who has a big influence on the person she has become got her thinking about removing the mole? Either way I was shocked to see her fave without a mole....I went home that night and laid in bed and just kept thinking.....theres nothing wrong with the mole being removed if she feels that it has made her more confident as a person, I just hope she is happy and did it for the right reasons. But then again....she removed a mole which in the eyes of 99% of people, she is more attractive now.
I think I am the weird....lets say unique or special 1% that sees that the mole had added character to her and I Liked it when she had the mole. If I was her boyfriend I would support her on whether she wanted it removed or not....make it her choice but let her know that I would love her no matter with or without the mole! I would not love her any less...Even till this day, if I ever talk to her again I would stand by my thinking and tell her I think she looked better with the mole. Maybe she will not understand why but that's how I see it.
Anyways...I woke up this morning at 9AM....its 9.40 now! I better plan what I need to do today and hopefully get some major studying done! 19 days left!
A out =)
Friday, October 21, 2011
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Tonight! I am ARGHHHH!!!! FUCK!!!
I am sooo angry right now!!!
I was driving home from dinner and I got caught speeding by some shitty van! It flashed and clearly I was caught! I was doing 70km on a 60km rd! Okay....get this....I pride myself of never getting caught speeding and this is my first one I ever got, which is why its such a big deal for me.
The only reason why I even got caught was because the road was a down hill road! Hence my speed had to increase! It wasnt like I was gonna break and slow my speed down when it was a downward road. Thats soo stupid! I swear...I dont have the time and money to deal with this at the moment! today I recently did my AHPRA registration which is where all pharmacy intern students have to do before commencing intern! It cost me $258 which has burned a whole through my wallet! And not only that I purchased my tickets flight back home which also set me back $139! Getting fine is sooo not cool!
If i got caught speeding on a straight road then yes....it was my own stupidity but I was going down hill and my speed automatically increases without me even accelerating/ This is sooo unjust! I am going to call up the Queensland Transport and speak to someone about this. I am sooo sure that they are not allow to catch anyone for speeding when going down hill! HOW RIDICULOUS!!!
ARGHHHHHH!!!!! I dont know how I am going to sleep tonight, let alone concentrate on studying! I have 21 days left till my first exam! Honestly F*** THIS!!!
Gonna call tomr....but doubt I can do anything! My two friends told me that it is not illegal for them to catch me while going downhill! BULLSHIT!!! When I am mad...swearing is a way to let it out.
I know I cant turn back time and just have to pay the fine, move on!!!
ARGHHHH will always remember this day!
I was driving home from dinner and I got caught speeding by some shitty van! It flashed and clearly I was caught! I was doing 70km on a 60km rd! Okay....get this....I pride myself of never getting caught speeding and this is my first one I ever got, which is why its such a big deal for me.
The only reason why I even got caught was because the road was a down hill road! Hence my speed had to increase! It wasnt like I was gonna break and slow my speed down when it was a downward road. Thats soo stupid! I swear...I dont have the time and money to deal with this at the moment! today I recently did my AHPRA registration which is where all pharmacy intern students have to do before commencing intern! It cost me $258 which has burned a whole through my wallet! And not only that I purchased my tickets flight back home which also set me back $139! Getting fine is sooo not cool!
If i got caught speeding on a straight road then yes....it was my own stupidity but I was going down hill and my speed automatically increases without me even accelerating/ This is sooo unjust! I am going to call up the Queensland Transport and speak to someone about this. I am sooo sure that they are not allow to catch anyone for speeding when going down hill! HOW RIDICULOUS!!!
ARGHHHHHH!!!!! I dont know how I am going to sleep tonight, let alone concentrate on studying! I have 21 days left till my first exam! Honestly F*** THIS!!!
Gonna call tomr....but doubt I can do anything! My two friends told me that it is not illegal for them to catch me while going downhill! BULLSHIT!!! When I am mad...swearing is a way to let it out.
I know I cant turn back time and just have to pay the fine, move on!!!
ARGHHHH will always remember this day!
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
is this it?
Sometimes I feel that I really cant handle certain situations!
Everyone thinks I am some Extrovert type of person who can be put into any scene and will adapt to it like that *snaps fingers* But really...I am not that type of person at all.
Like yesterday, that friend of mine who I wrote in my last post approached me! I just said hi and then completely ignored her. I think its because I was still mad at her. She saw I was giving her the cold shoulder and just walked off.
What was I supposed to do? Go on and act like I am all cool with her betraying me? Or How little she sees our friendship?
I have no idea when we still start talking again and even if we did, I know one things for sure and that is we can never be the same or be close again! It really sucks...I wanted to leave Uni with having lifelong friends....even though I wasn't attracted to her as in more than a friend but I would have still hoped to be friends....I think as soon as we leave uni and start working, we will just distant ourselves and lose contact completely.
Well...what can I do? This is the person I am! I talked to a friend online....I did ask that friend of mine, how to would she deal with betrayal and basically weighing things up.....forgiveness would be her choice. I told her I would find it super hard to forgive because theres not many things that could get to me but if it does then it has to be something big! After i said that....my friend goes to me "well...I'll make sure I don't do anything that can make you mad a me" I said "ur too nice so that will never happen"
That was just being nice because I know even the nicest person can do something one day I might not like....its whether if I see it as something I am strongly against or cant accept which hence will really test my friendship for the person.
Anyways....I have 3 weeks till exams! Time to really get serious with my studies and not bother about anything else. Have 2 exams....nearly at the end of the road. I can almost see it....I have to try or else I will never forgive myself, knowing i did not try in these 3 weeks.
A Out :)
Everyone thinks I am some Extrovert type of person who can be put into any scene and will adapt to it like that *snaps fingers* But really...I am not that type of person at all.
Like yesterday, that friend of mine who I wrote in my last post approached me! I just said hi and then completely ignored her. I think its because I was still mad at her. She saw I was giving her the cold shoulder and just walked off.
What was I supposed to do? Go on and act like I am all cool with her betraying me? Or How little she sees our friendship?
I have no idea when we still start talking again and even if we did, I know one things for sure and that is we can never be the same or be close again! It really sucks...I wanted to leave Uni with having lifelong friends....even though I wasn't attracted to her as in more than a friend but I would have still hoped to be friends....I think as soon as we leave uni and start working, we will just distant ourselves and lose contact completely.
Well...what can I do? This is the person I am! I talked to a friend online....I did ask that friend of mine, how to would she deal with betrayal and basically weighing things up.....forgiveness would be her choice. I told her I would find it super hard to forgive because theres not many things that could get to me but if it does then it has to be something big! After i said that....my friend goes to me "well...I'll make sure I don't do anything that can make you mad a me" I said "ur too nice so that will never happen"
That was just being nice because I know even the nicest person can do something one day I might not like....its whether if I see it as something I am strongly against or cant accept which hence will really test my friendship for the person.
Anyways....I have 3 weeks till exams! Time to really get serious with my studies and not bother about anything else. Have 2 exams....nearly at the end of the road. I can almost see it....I have to try or else I will never forgive myself, knowing i did not try in these 3 weeks.
A Out :)
Monday, October 17, 2011
feelings of....
disappointment!
Tonight I annoyed, angry, sad and confused. Our graduation dinner is in a months time, so a close friend of mine asked me to organise the table arrangements. I didn't mind it....she had 3 other friends! Total 4 of them.....+ Me and 2 of my mates =7
Hence I needed to find 3 more friends. I found them....and tonight, she wanted to pull out of the group. That really annoyed me! Apparently, these two other friends of her are also organising the seating arrangements and she picked to sit with them and not me.
1. It just shows where I stand compare to her other friends in her eyes
2. If so, she should have never asked me to even organise it in the first place.
Anyways....I feel soo betrayed! I dont know how i am gonna even look her in the eyes tomr at uni!....
I guess i am gonna email the QPSA ppzl and let them know we got 6 on our table and get them to randomly allocate 4 other randoms. I have not probs talking to strangers/randoms because i am talkative and easily approachable, but to have this feeling of what she did to me....is not cool! I am hurt...and mad! Dont know how long I will stay mad but one thing is for sure......I am not gonna ever forget this and gonna be hard for me to forgive.
A out >_<''
Tonight I annoyed, angry, sad and confused. Our graduation dinner is in a months time, so a close friend of mine asked me to organise the table arrangements. I didn't mind it....she had 3 other friends! Total 4 of them.....+ Me and 2 of my mates =7
Hence I needed to find 3 more friends. I found them....and tonight, she wanted to pull out of the group. That really annoyed me! Apparently, these two other friends of her are also organising the seating arrangements and she picked to sit with them and not me.
1. It just shows where I stand compare to her other friends in her eyes
2. If so, she should have never asked me to even organise it in the first place.
Anyways....I feel soo betrayed! I dont know how i am gonna even look her in the eyes tomr at uni!....
I guess i am gonna email the QPSA ppzl and let them know we got 6 on our table and get them to randomly allocate 4 other randoms. I have not probs talking to strangers/randoms because i am talkative and easily approachable, but to have this feeling of what she did to me....is not cool! I am hurt...and mad! Dont know how long I will stay mad but one thing is for sure......I am not gonna ever forget this and gonna be hard for me to forgive.
A out >_<''
Sunday, October 9, 2011
Bored....
Ok! So decided add a new entry becuz I am bored at the moment and really have nothing better to do.
I am suppose to do my MPE research and rock up to UNI of a day off to go through the speeches with my gp members. Some reason I cant seem to concentrate tonight and would rather do anything but the MPE!
So I've decided to act as a speech pathologist for the speech and really I have no idea at all really what they do...I mean I know they help patients with swallowing, speech and language difficulties but how? I really must find out by the end of tonight. A 5 minute speech will be quite challenging i think....so I just have to see how much information I can find....Pharmacy is sooo annoying! Like why would I want to know what other health professionals do in detail? I don't think other degrees force their students to study about what pharmacists do in detail! If I wanted to study to become a speech pathologist I would have enrolled in that program....argh!!! Its not cool! >_<''
1hr later.....was just browsing youtube and facebk! Just found out that you can actually block someone and they wont be able to find you on fb! Which is amazing...I found out this guy blocked me! He hates me....i really actually dont know. My reason for hating him is because he is a sly bastard, a jerk and also dating the girl I like. However, thinking about her now....I really dont care and I believe I really have totally lost interest in her. If I ever speak to her again...I just want to her to know "What ever happens, I hope you know...you deserve the best". A small part of me will always have feelings for her...she really is a nice person on the inside but her boyfriend is just a bad influence and shes turned out for the worse, but thats the path she has chosen and so I cant do much. I know there are better friends out there to make!
Anyways....time to start my MPE! hopefully I can make good progress in the next 2hrs and sleep at 12!
A-Out!
I am suppose to do my MPE research and rock up to UNI of a day off to go through the speeches with my gp members. Some reason I cant seem to concentrate tonight and would rather do anything but the MPE!
So I've decided to act as a speech pathologist for the speech and really I have no idea at all really what they do...I mean I know they help patients with swallowing, speech and language difficulties but how? I really must find out by the end of tonight. A 5 minute speech will be quite challenging i think....so I just have to see how much information I can find....Pharmacy is sooo annoying! Like why would I want to know what other health professionals do in detail? I don't think other degrees force their students to study about what pharmacists do in detail! If I wanted to study to become a speech pathologist I would have enrolled in that program....argh!!! Its not cool! >_<''
1hr later.....was just browsing youtube and facebk! Just found out that you can actually block someone and they wont be able to find you on fb! Which is amazing...I found out this guy blocked me! He hates me....i really actually dont know. My reason for hating him is because he is a sly bastard, a jerk and also dating the girl I like. However, thinking about her now....I really dont care and I believe I really have totally lost interest in her. If I ever speak to her again...I just want to her to know "What ever happens, I hope you know...you deserve the best". A small part of me will always have feelings for her...she really is a nice person on the inside but her boyfriend is just a bad influence and shes turned out for the worse, but thats the path she has chosen and so I cant do much. I know there are better friends out there to make!
Anyways....time to start my MPE! hopefully I can make good progress in the next 2hrs and sleep at 12!
A-Out!
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
Confessions are actually not too bad...
okays...I recently realised something!
In these past couple of days, I found that after a confession to a girl you like is not something you cant get over, especially when she rejects you.
Now...the story goes, I like this close friend of mine...told her how I felt and wanted to know if she felt the same. She asked me how long i have felt this way and I told her that I have for quite sometime now.
She said that it really caught her by surprised and that she never felt that way towards me. She said its not a definite no but she wants to go with the flow and see what happens.
This really reminds me of an episode in HIMYM where they defined this theory where everyone gets caught in the vicious cycle of being hooked. I feel like I am being hooked by her....its like this e.g. "I can't be with you....right now." I think if you like someone u will always know...she definitely doesnt feel that way.
Now there's two options I can take:
1. Go back to being friends and act like everything is fine
2. Slowly become distant to her
At this stage I dont know what route I will take but just have to wait and see...I got too many things to worry about such as final 4wks of Uni and end of pharmacy degree. I cant believe its been 3 yrs since I have been up here....feels like a dream! This experience of being away from home has definitely turned out alot better than I expected....because I have grown and become more independent which I dont think I would have gotten if I got into pharmacy back home. Also the awesome friends I made...I am sure we will be lifelong friends! Thankyou Fate!
Anyways, back to my point...after telling her and she nicely rejected me, I thought I would be pretty heartbroken, but....No! I was fine. It was just better to get it off my chest and felt like whatever the outcome may have been...it was a win for me. Maybe I am just being an optimistic like I always am but yeh....life goes on and there are other girls out there.
I am slowly losing feelings for her as day goes by...i think some people will question how much I liked her....I did like her alot but being the person I am...I dont want to hold onto something thats not worth holding on. Sure I will always have some feelings for her but nothing is going to happen so I have to move on.
Not writing these past couple of days....have made me write quite alot for this post! Until next time.....
A - out :)
In these past couple of days, I found that after a confession to a girl you like is not something you cant get over, especially when she rejects you.
Now...the story goes, I like this close friend of mine...told her how I felt and wanted to know if she felt the same. She asked me how long i have felt this way and I told her that I have for quite sometime now.
She said that it really caught her by surprised and that she never felt that way towards me. She said its not a definite no but she wants to go with the flow and see what happens.
This really reminds me of an episode in HIMYM where they defined this theory where everyone gets caught in the vicious cycle of being hooked. I feel like I am being hooked by her....its like this e.g. "I can't be with you....right now." I think if you like someone u will always know...she definitely doesnt feel that way.
Now there's two options I can take:
1. Go back to being friends and act like everything is fine
2. Slowly become distant to her
At this stage I dont know what route I will take but just have to wait and see...I got too many things to worry about such as final 4wks of Uni and end of pharmacy degree. I cant believe its been 3 yrs since I have been up here....feels like a dream! This experience of being away from home has definitely turned out alot better than I expected....because I have grown and become more independent which I dont think I would have gotten if I got into pharmacy back home. Also the awesome friends I made...I am sure we will be lifelong friends! Thankyou Fate!
Anyways, back to my point...after telling her and she nicely rejected me, I thought I would be pretty heartbroken, but....No! I was fine. It was just better to get it off my chest and felt like whatever the outcome may have been...it was a win for me. Maybe I am just being an optimistic like I always am but yeh....life goes on and there are other girls out there.
I am slowly losing feelings for her as day goes by...i think some people will question how much I liked her....I did like her alot but being the person I am...I dont want to hold onto something thats not worth holding on. Sure I will always have some feelings for her but nothing is going to happen so I have to move on.
Not writing these past couple of days....have made me write quite alot for this post! Until next time.....
A - out :)
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