A couple of days....

A couple of days have gone....not long till i leave! Gonna miss Adelaide *cries* but whats done is done. I accepted the offer from the far university. Will be a shocker....like not gonna get used to it. HOME SICK!!!!!!!

Last couple of days.....What have I been doing?
Nothing much really, have been on msn talking to some friends...Its Tuesday tomr! GOD time flies....I wish it would slow down. I don't want my time to end. Wanna make the most of it with family and friends. Friends have supps and so can't really ask them to hangout. And....What i'm also worried about are the *Who so called friends I don't like* We can't be friends with everyone, there are some ppzl we really hate for whatever reason, yet.... I still act like everything is normal between us. I know that when the news come out that I'm leaving to go interstate to study, alot of them will be like "AS IF" Lucky for them! Others will be sad who i call as true friends....

A friend of mine called me up today! She said "OMG! i can't believe you sound so normal about it. Like I wouldn't cope leaving home" When she said that I didn't really know what to say, there was an awkward silence...I replied "yea....." Well after that conversation, i felt bad. Honestly i feel like why didn't i just try that little harder, then i wouldn't have to leave home and go far to study. That conversation just made me feel worse but i know she's only caring enough to ask me :(

Well...I don't know whatelse to say, I'm feeling really empty atm! Not really thinking much, i feel like i can repeat myself if i write on.
hrmmmmmmm.......<<<.<

30mins later!
I think I'll just leave it as that, life isn't great for me atm. Maybe moving away won't be as bad as I may think but right now i see so many negatives..... the 1 positive is getting into the program my parents are proud of me doing.

will keep writting..............til next time!

2 month summarized!!!

WOW! I can't belive its been ages since i last wrote.
Alot of things have been happening....where do i start?

Since last time i was studying for exams....afterwards just been working and anxiously waiting for my results. I pass everything which was a relief but still am dissapointed with my effort. I know alot of people will say i should be happy with my results but blankly, I am upset with myself. I wanted D's and HD but can't believe i didn't get it for 2 of my classes which sux! Talking about my grades just makes me depressed so lets move on i will get back to where this leaves me later.

hrmmm my birthday was on about a month ago. It was a great nite, alot of friends were there. I had fun!

Then Christmas and NYE came! That was the best NYE anyone could have. I hanged out with some really good friends. It was AWESOME! I hope I can have another NYE this year just the same as i did in 2008! That was definietely a highlight of my year!!!

Next.....Offer rounds for uni courses came out! urmmmm kinda wasn't expecting i would get into either physiotherapy or pharmacy because the GPA is really high. However I still had hopes..... :( Didn't get offered a place.
At this time i was confused of what to do?.....Like I don't mind my current studies but to make my parents happy, i also applied to study far. Well the far uni accepted me and offered me into a program that my parents wanted me to get into. At first hesitation..... now i still hesitate!

I don't want to move away from a place i called home! This year will be an absolute lonely year without family and friends. I'm gonna miss them all so much! HOMESICK! Wonder how i will do without parents but i try to stay positive and tell myself i need to be independent and this would be a great experience! But.... Who are we kiddin? I know its gonna be bad. Friends...I'm gonna miss them terribly too. Only a couple know i made the decision to study away from home, I wanna have a get together. to be honest I'm worried I might burst out in tears if i see my friends cry. Hopefully they don't do that! I can write forever on every individual friends i have and their good qualities but lets not go there.

I don't have long till i leave home. I want to spend the rest of the time i have left with my family and friends. I'm already counting down the days so i can return home and see their faces. Anyways no more talking about how shit my leaving is gonna be. Moving on.....

Yesterday I downloaded an Album...by Raymond Lam. His new album called "Your Love" is really good. Thought you guys who is reading my blog want to listen to his songs.
*if u r interested in chinese music - Its great album*

The tracks on the album are:

1) 愛不疚 Love With No Regrets (Moonlight Resonance Ending Theme)
2) 愛人與海 Lover and Sea
3) Tonight
4) 明天以後 (林峯/泳兒) After tomorrow (Cantonese version duet with Vincy Chan)
5) 憑良心說再見 Saying goodbye with conscience
6) 影子的愛情故事 Shadow's love story
7) 浮生若水 Gentle life like water (The Master of Tai Chi Ending Theme)
8) All About Your Love
9) 夏雪 Summer Snow
10)明天以後 (國語)(林峯/泳兒) After tomorrow (Mandarin version duet with Vincy Chan)

I have been listening to track 1 on repeat for heaps long now. I love this song, its sooo good. You know how they say the music ya listenning to tells what mood ya in atm?, Well if you listen to track 1 that is the mood I am in atm. I will let you guys think of what mood I'm in LOLS!

I think I will write more another day, I've feel like you need a break from reading soo much. Until next time.....