Behind that smile

Behind this smile is something you will never understand. Behind this smile is a person with many tears that are being held back. Behind this smile is where I hide. Behind this smile is what I choose not to show. Behind this smile is what you will never know. Very sad lately, even though I am miles away, my family are close to my heart.

I'm back!

I havent posted in such a long time! Anyways, I will try to write more when i have some free time. I am in my final years of my study...and lately I have been thinkin if I should do further studies (5 more years) to become a dentist! I dont know why but pharmacy doesnt seem to be me at all. However I plan to graduate with this degree and sit UMAT, and just depends if i pass the test or not. I am not thinking too much and gonna take it one step at a time.

Life in general has been ok....cant complain too much! It hasnt been bad but hasnt been great.

Friends...I find myself losing more friends as the days go by....during the holidays, I went back home and met some friends, most of them have really changed...and feels like i dont know them anymore. It sucks to be in this position, I guess I am trying to stay positive and tell myself atleast I have 1-2 close friends I can call "True Friends".

While I was back home, I went out and saw an old friend. To see her and feel so distant, all because of her JERK boyfriend really pissed me off. Afterwards, it was on my mind constantly and so I drank quite a bit. I pretty much wanted the alcohol to make me forget but reality is, the next day I still remembered...that comes with the hangover as well. I promised to myself never to drink that much ever again!

Anyways, i'm feeling tired...post next time!

Its been yonks

Its been sooo long since last wrote......soo many things have happened in my life.

I am at the cross roads of my life where I've been thinking alot about things that i truely think matters in life. Girlfriend is definitely on the list!!! Have multiple interests atm which is normal i guess for being a guy! Theres a girl in class that want to get to know but.....something is preventing me and I know exactly what it is. IT IS MYSELF!!! I say theres nothing to lose soo why am i holding back? Isn't it funny in life, u see what u want yet going out to get it is a completely different story.
Maybe I need to someone get to know her on a better basis and see the vibe between us. She recently broke up with her boufriend according to a friend of mine who told me....no one really knows that i am interested in her among our friends and I dont really talk to her ex at all so I dont really have any problem if we date her....Its sooo weird to have feelings for her because i never did until she was single and I see something in her. Sooo i will update on how things going later!

Studyin.....has been pretty bad, just being slacking off. Got an assignment due first day back soo yeah, have not really started, Plan to to some reading in the next 5 mins.....go have something to eat and then come back and read some more. DAMN! Pharmacology how i dislike this!!!

oh! Things have never been more awkward between me and the 2nd yr girl i had a crush on last yr....we see eachother and talk but its just sooo awkward....she cant expect me to act cool when i see her hugging some other guy at the bus stop where i was standing! Theres also a girl in class who i came to be friends with, she is HOT AND COLD to me......What is her deal?...I dont know but i really have lost interest in her....but i dont want to have a bad reputation if i go for her and things fail soo best to remain friends.....I think i am saying this because i dont think shes worth it....But yeah.......Back to studying! I hope i can pass this yr, i seriously hope i can >.<

Alrites, until next time!

给我你的爱....

I heard this song from a friend... and I really like it...

給我你的愛
Gei Wo Ni De Ai
Give Me Your Love

Artist: TANK


等待　一點一滴　你對我感到安心
Deng dai yi dian yi di ni dui wo gan dao an xin
Wait bit by bit [until] you can feel at ease toward me

感覺　朋友關係　有了新的默契
Gan jue peng you guan xi you le xin de mo qi
Feelings, in regards to friendship, a new silent understanding has developed

便利商店裡　誰也買不到
Bian li shang dian li shei ye mai bu dao
[The things] Inside the convenience store, who can�t afford to buy?

我們最想要的東西　只握在　喜歡的人手上
Wo men zui xiang yao de dong xi zhi wo zai xi huan de ren shou shang
The thing that we want the most is held in the hands of the one we like

給我你的愛　讓我陪著你去未來
Gei wo ni de ai rang wo pei zhe ni qu wei lai
Give me your love, let me walk together with you to see tomorrow [the future]

給我你的愛　手拉著手　不放開
Gei wo ni de ai shou la zhe shou bu fang kai
Give me your love, hands holding hands, never let go

就算宇宙爆炸　海水都蒸發
Jiu suan yu zhou bao zha hai shui doi zheng fa
Even if the universe explodes, the ocean evaporates

只願你的記憶裡　有我的擁抱
Zhi yuan ni de ji yi li you wo de yong bao
My only wish is that you�ll have my embrace in your memory

我的　最大幸褔　是發現了我愛你
Wo de zui da xing fu shi fa xian le wo ai ni
My greatest joy is to find out that I love you

靈魂　有了意義　
Ling hun you le yi yi
My soul now has meanings

用每一天珍惜
Yong mei yi tian zhen xi
To cherish each day

便利商店裡　誰也買不到
Bian li shang dian li shei ye mai bu dao
[The things] Inside the convenience store, who can�t afford to buy?

我們最想要的東西　只握在　喜歡的人手上
Wo men zui xiang yao de dong xi zhi wo zai xi huan de ren shou shang
The thing that we want the most is held in the hands of the one we like

給我你的愛　讓我陪著你去未來
Gei wo ni de ai rang wo pei zhe ni qu wei lai
Give me your love, let me walk together with you to see tomorrow [the future]

給我你的愛　手拉著手　不放開
Gei wo ni de ai shou la zhe shou bu fang kai
Give me your love, hands holding hands, never let go

就算宇宙爆炸　海水都蒸發
Jiu suan yu zhou bao zha hai shui doi zheng fa
Even if the universe explodes, the ocean evaporates

只願你的記憶裡　有我的擁抱
Zhi yuan ni de ji yi li you wo de yong bao
My only wish is that you�ll have my embrace in your memory

雨和天空也有　相愛的可能
Yu he tian kong ye you xiang ai de ke neng
The rain and the sky also have the possibility to fall in love

望著妳的微笑　情不自禁
Wang zhe ni de wei xiao qing bu zi jin
Gazing at your smile makes me lose myself

給我你的愛　讓我陪著你去未來
Gei wo ni de ai rang wo pei zhe ni qu wei lai
Give me your love, let me walk together with you to see tomorrow [in this context it means the future]

給我你的愛　手拉著手　不放開
Gei wo ni de ai shou la zhe shou bu fang kai
Give me your love, hands holding hands, never let go

就算宇宙爆炸　海水都蒸發
Jiu suan yu zhou bao zha hai shui doi zheng fa
Even if the universe explodes, the ocean evaporates

只願你的記憶裡　有我的擁抱
Zhi yuan ni de ji yi li you wo de yong bao
My only wish is that you�ll have my embrace in your memory

making love.....

This is a pretty good song sang by Big Bang - Making Love
Reason I think that songs with great lyrics is always going to be good and I find that the words in these lyrics tell a story. I think that everyone will be able to find that special someone and be able to say the words in this lyrics to that person. One day I will find that girl and will tell her this.....

Here are the Lyrics.....

I never knew I'd find a love so true
This one right here, is just for you

Remember that One day
I held your hands then I kissed your lips then I told you
Our love was meant to be and always will forever
Give me that happiness I get from you just being there

I always see you when I close my eyes, you're on my mind
So can't you see, I need you right here wit me, close by my side
This time for sure, Gonna let you know, My love is straight from the heart

Forever you're my girl Forever be my world
You are the only one
The only one I'll ever need, my life is you and me
Forever you're my girl Forever be my world
You are the only one
I'll never break your heart "no", so baby don't let go

Even through the hard times
We made it through just fine
When it hurt we put in the work
To show that I'm yours
And that your mine
That's how we got this far
Let's never be apart
Girl, you're my queen
I'm here for you
'Cuz you're my everything

You always make me feel like everything's gonna be alright
Wit the things you do, becuz it's you the real true love of my life
This time fo sho, Gonna let you know, My love is straight from the heart

Forever you my girl Forever be my world
You are the only one
The only one I'll ever need, my life is you & me
Forever you my girl Forever be my world
You are the only one
I'll never break your heart "no", so baby don't let go

Uh... baby!
You know I'd walk them miles
Climb mountains switch up styles
All I wanna do, is be with you
Ain't no matter what, where and how
[Right here and now] we can both get down [straight work it out] yeah
Like that sound bump 'n grindin' perfect timin'
Let's dine and both be proud yeah yeah yeah

Gonna take you on a joyride today
Me and you stay true never hesitate
To make love — sho nuff
You're the only one I'm ever thinkin' of
Just to hold you baby I can hardly wait
As we go through the motions damn it's great
To make love — sho 'nuff
We're gonna take it to the end and that's what's up

You are the only one I want to spend my whole life with I know
Anywhere you are, that's where I will call home
So just take my hand and say that you will never let it go
Two hearts always beating as one forever more

Forever you my girl Forever be my world
You are the only one
The only one I'll ever need, my life is you & me
Forever you my girl Forever be my world
You are the only one
I'll never break your heart "no", so baby don't let go

I'm nothing without you I'm nothing without you girl
I'm nothing without you I'm nothing without you girl
My love



Well tomr is my first exam! I have so much to go through tonight. AHHHH......until next time. =)

Officially Missing You

Really like this song - sang my Tamia but i think Jayesslee (Two Australian - korean Twins)does a better version

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DtXr0pIRSg4

I think its a great song that anyone can relate to, since there are times in our lives when we miss someone. Atm....guess I am missing someone, but she probably doesn't know it.

Also...in context although the song is specifically missing "The One" person, can also relate to missing family and friends, which is also true in my case. Can't for holidays.

Here are the Lyrics

Hmm...
Ooh...ooh...

All I hear is raindrops, falling on the rooftop
Oh baby, tell me why'd you have to go
'Cause this pain I feel, it won't go away
And today I'm officially missing you

I thought that from this heartache, I could escape
But I've fronted long enough to know
There ain't no way
And today I'm officially missing you

Ooh, can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I-I'm officially...

All I do is lay around, two years full of tears
From looking at your face on the wall
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now I don't even know you at all, I don't know you at all

Well, I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it's safe to say, baby, safe to say
That I-I'm officially missing you

Ooh, can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I-I'm officially

Well, I thought I could just get over you, baby
But I see that's something I just can't do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can't find a way to let go of you

Ooh...can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I-I'm officially...

It's official
Hoo, you know that I'm missin' you, yeah, yes
All I hear is raindrops, oh, yeah
And I-I'm officially missin' you

Family Man Pharmacist

I recently did a facebook quiz that described what kind of pharmacist i would be! Thought I would post this up!

The Family Man Pharmacist
The only reason you are doing this degree is to provide a stable form of income for your current and future family. You will be a great dad or mum that can not only provide free health care to your loved ones but you will also be a stable source of income. You will probably marry a pharmacist and have little pharmacist babies that wear little lab coats. You will spend your life taking your pharmacist family on holidays visiting other pharmacist families and have little pharmacist picnics. If this is what your life is going to be like then I encourage you to p.a.r.t.y hard while you can, families are for later... Drinking is for now... and your future partner will probably be a nagging nutter so be free while you can!

Anyways I have to get back to studying! I am soo stressed atm...I don't know if i can pass since i have like 9 exams but guess can't do anything but try.

Will post another time!

Great Song!

Why did I end up falling for you? by DBSK

Why did I end up falling for you?
No matter how much time has passed,
I thought that you would always be here
But you have chosen a different road

Why wasn't I able to convey to you?
My feelings that were growing everyday and night
The words begin to overflow
But I know they won't reach you now

From the first day that I met you
I felt like I knew you
And the two of us melded together so naturally

Wherever we would go, it would be together
It was so natural for you to be with me
We became adults together
But you chose a different road

Why did I end up falling for you?
No matter how much time has passed,
I thought that you would always be here (but not anymore)

Today, the day that holds a special meaning
The day that you stood with a smile of happiness
Praying to God in your beautiful appearance

With the person next to you who isn't me
The image of you receiving blessings
How could I just stand aside and watch

So why did I end up falling for you?
We can't go back to that time, or how we were (I've thought it through)

Why wasn't I able to take your hand?
No matter how much time passes
You always should've been by my side
Now it will never come true

But, even though I say that I need you close to me
I just pray that you will be happy forever
No matter how lonely that makes me (or how sad)

The Jaopanese Version!

Doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou? by DBSK

Doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou?
Donna ni toki ga nagaretemo kimi wa zutto
Koko ni iru to, omotteta no ni
Demo kimi ga eranda no wa chigau michi

Doushite kimi ni nani mo tsutaerarenakattan darou?
Mainichi maiban tsunotteku omoi
Afuredasu kotoba, wakatteta no ni (mou todokanai)

Hajimete deatta, sono hi kara
Kimi wo shitteita ki ga shitan da
Amari ni shizen ni tokende shimatta futari

Doko e iku no ni mo issho de
Kimi ga iru koto ga touzen de
Bokura wa futari de otona ni natte kita
Demo kimi ga eranda no wa chigau michi

Doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou?
Donna ni toki ga nagaretemo kimi wa zutto
Koko ni iru to, omotteta no ni (mou kanawanai)

Tokubetsu na imi wo motsu kyou wo
Shiawase kao de tatsu kyou wo
Kirei na sugata de kami sama ni chikatteru, kimi wo

Boku ja nai hito no tonari de
Shukufuku sareteru sugata wo
Boku wa dou yatte miokureba ii no darou?

Mou doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou?
Ano koro mo, bokura no koto, mou moderenai (kangaeta) modorenai (kangaeta)

Doushite kimi no te wo tsukami ubaenakattan darou?
Donna ni toki ga nagaretemo kimi wa zutto
Boku no yoko ni, iru hazu datta (sono mama nii)

Sore demo kimi ga boku no soba nara to itte mo
Eien ni kimi ga shiawase de iru koto
Tada negatteru
Tatoe sore ga donna ni sabishikutemo (setsunakutemo)

Have to get back to studying now!

Today!

I got her number.....but now as i write this, I feel that today i set out a goal, i accomplished it but i feel sort of empty. I dunno why....i can't concentrate on studying write now or even write much, so i am gonna go to bed. Hopefully clear my head and then think of an answer to this, move on and study for exams.

Tomr = wonder what will happen & Exam Times

Its been 2-3wks since my last post!

I'm gonna keep it short and simple cause i don't have much time, so tomr I am going to class and after class when i walk out, i am going to ask her for her number. Hopefully it won't be too weird.....Kinda worried in a way but I rather do it and regret not knowing, wishing i did it later down the track if i didn't do it tomr.

I will post on what happen tomr if i have some time but don't know for certain yet cause i have exams to study for. I have like 9 exams....CRAZY! The times are

2 weeks of intense stress...I feel tired of just looking at the exam times. AHHH
MONDAY 9th November
WEDNESDAY 11th November
THURSDAY 12th November
FRIDAY Counseling EXAM 13th November
SATURDAY 14th November
MONDAY 16th November
Thursday Two Counseling EXAM 19th November
Friday, 20th November

Anyways....I have to go! mite do some studying now...if not gonna sleep early and do wake up early tomr morning! Need energy for tomr and summon the courage hahahaha xD